I was laying on the examination table, as the doctor slowly went over all the details of my ultrasound. This was not my normal midwife/OBGYN, we had traveled to a town about an hour away for a special level two ultrasound. We were there that day to check on the placement of my placenta, to see if it was still complete previa, and if I still needed to be on bedrest. However, as the doctor moved his little 'wand' around my stomach, I heard him murmur in concern. "Hmmm...something's not quite normal at the back of the babies head....too much surface area there....could be nothing, but it's often a sign of Down's Syndrome. I would recommend another test to determine for sure, and that way you can decide if you want to abort or not." My heart caught in my throat. I looked over at Joel for support. "Oh, no, we're not interested." The doctor didn't understand. "Well, most people opt to have this test, that way they can decide if they want to keep the baby or not." Joel tried again. "No, it wouldn't matter to us---either way, we want to keep the baby" And as I laid there, I wanted to cry. How sad that the very doctor who was supposed to be responsible for my health and my babies health, was suggesting the possible 'termination' of the pregnancy!
Well, you all probably know the ending of this story already. Noah does not have Down's Syndrome--but even if he did, it would have made no difference to us, we would have loved him anyway.
And as I sat on the couch tonight, cuddling him and marveling at his sweetness and what a gift from God he really is, my heart ached for all those who have followed a doctor's mis-guided words. For all of the women who will never have that sweet baby to cuddle in their arms. Do their hearts ache? Do they feel like someone's missing? As I held Noah, I almost felt angry at that doctor from over a year ago. Look at my sweet Noah boy now! What stupid advice that doctor was offering! But then, I had to forgive him, and realize that he is so very, very lost. A baby is precious, every single time...
Choose life---you will never regret it!!